20 oct 08

me: i have no fucking idea
N: to be completely honest em. I wish I was. but I’m still pretty much completely hung up on you
which makes it a bit tricky
me:
N: [spank] [and it's true]
me: and you know that s pretty unsafe i am never a safe bet
N: I know em. it breaks my heart. you have no idea
me: it does me if i have to do you
N: ?
me: anyway, just checking up on you. no point talking about it on monday morning. i just dont want to be too misleading
N: ummmm ok and I don’t want to be mislead
me: so
N: so?
me: so it is
N: [sigh] AM well you know anytime you change your mind . . . .
me: you ve no idea how thankful i am. how lucky i feel about you but my warnin is still there out of my honesty and concern about you. am not a safe bet
N: I know em. I know. but I am who I am and I can’t help the way I feel. I’m not pretending it makes life easy. nor that I think it’ smart. but I do think you’re absolutely wonderful and of all the people I know in the end despite everything
me: and i ll say the same thing to you. and everybody s happy. world peeeeace
N: ha. let me finish . . . .in the end, you’re the person I most want to share things with so . . . either I ‘ll convince you one day or I’ll get over it. life sucks like that. but hey . . .
me: yes, hey
N: you are fucking trouble. anyway. you know where I stand. and anytime you want to actually talk to me in any depth. I welcome it
me: yes, anh. you re my last ally in the world. and am yours
N: ok babe
me: viva communism
N: thanks and no stress. oi troi oi . .
me: did i send you the one i said i would? with the guy in benthanh market. speaking english?
N: yes
me: the one who sells postcards
N: loved it
me: haha, no stress, no sweat. okie dokie. maybe i should let you get back to your work. am done with mine. trying to sell some photos here
N: I should. but you know I’m a sucker for your distraction. but yes. I should work. you have fun nhe. xxx